There was so, so much that Jyn didn't know, couldn't know, couldn't begin to make sense of. In all he said, though — and she tried, truly, to listen, to take in every word — one thing jumped out at her, a small certainty she could cling to. Maybe that was the best she could do for now. Rather than trying to make sense of everything at once, take the smallest pieces and try to build the rest around them. She thought he might, in a way, have been trying to say the same sort of thing, that they didn't need to know all of it yet.
What she did know was that, hearing him say if you don't want me, she was sure nothing could have been further from the truth. She wanted so, so much that she was dizzy with it. She didn't want to want so much, but she'd fought this battle with herself the first time, too, and lost pitifully. Apparently even the years she'd been without him, in any incarnation, weren't enough to fortify her resolve.
"I don't want to be without you," she said. It wasn't quite what she'd intended to say, but then, he had told her not to hold things back on his account. She would've preferred, though, if she could have kept her voice from wavering while she said them. Since she first met him, she'd never wanted to be without him, and she'd come to have every reason to believe that she would be for the rest of time.
She took a breath, willed herself to keep going. Difficult as this was for her, he was worth the effort. "There's... a lot I don't know, right now. What to say. What this means. What I want. But I do know that. So. Yes. To what you said."
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What she did know was that, hearing him say if you don't want me, she was sure nothing could have been further from the truth. She wanted so, so much that she was dizzy with it. She didn't want to want so much, but she'd fought this battle with herself the first time, too, and lost pitifully. Apparently even the years she'd been without him, in any incarnation, weren't enough to fortify her resolve.
"I don't want to be without you," she said. It wasn't quite what she'd intended to say, but then, he had told her not to hold things back on his account. She would've preferred, though, if she could have kept her voice from wavering while she said them. Since she first met him, she'd never wanted to be without him, and she'd come to have every reason to believe that she would be for the rest of time.
She took a breath, willed herself to keep going. Difficult as this was for her, he was worth the effort. "There's... a lot I don't know, right now. What to say. What this means. What I want. But I do know that. So. Yes. To what you said."