Her eyes caught him amidships. "I thought so…" His fingers spread to feel the fabric at her back, trying to ground him, perhaps to reassure her. His other hand came up to seek hers.
Are we both waiting for each other?
Cassian looked at her and realized they were now the same age. Like he'd said, she didn't need him to look out for her. Except maybe instead of him looking to her to set the pace, she needed him to. To her, it was too tangled.
He wasn't used to speaking so much, to anybody. But to Jyn, it was worth figuring out.
"Whatever happens to me next," he said, "I want to involve you. I can't go back to who I was before I knew you. I don't want to. If you don't want me, I'll walk away glad you're in the universe. But… if we can be together, in any way, that's what I want.
"What 'together' looks like… Like I said. I can't imagine anything with you I don't want. But I also know… I—this version of me—just got here. Like we said before… I haven't even met you outside of war." He gave a lopsided smile. "I'm pretty sure we're gonna get along. But I think it's worth building that foundation before… getting too far.
"I'm saying this 'cause… it seems like we're both waiting for each other to set the pace? If I'm wrong, hit me over the head with something. If I'm right… here's my pace. I would love to spend tonight the way we spent last night. And every foreseeable night holding you. But I'm not gonna rush into anything else. Let's know each other a few more days, at least.
"If we need more time, more space, well, they gave me an apartment. We can check it out. …Hell, we can go there together and just spend time in separate rooms. We can do whatever we need to.
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Are we both waiting for each other?
Cassian looked at her and realized they were now the same age. Like he'd said, she didn't need him to look out for her. Except maybe instead of him looking to her to set the pace, she needed him to. To her, it was too tangled.
He wasn't used to speaking so much, to anybody. But to Jyn, it was worth figuring out.
"Whatever happens to me next," he said, "I want to involve you. I can't go back to who I was before I knew you. I don't want to. If you don't want me, I'll walk away glad you're in the universe. But… if we can be together, in any way, that's what I want.
"What 'together' looks like… Like I said. I can't imagine anything with you I don't want. But I also know… I—this version of me—just got here. Like we said before… I haven't even met you outside of war." He gave a lopsided smile. "I'm pretty sure we're gonna get along. But I think it's worth building that foundation before… getting too far.
"I'm saying this 'cause… it seems like we're both waiting for each other to set the pace? If I'm wrong, hit me over the head with something. If I'm right… here's my pace. I would love to spend tonight the way we spent last night. And every foreseeable night holding you. But I'm not gonna rush into anything else. Let's know each other a few more days, at least.
"If we need more time, more space, well, they gave me an apartment. We can check it out. …Hell, we can go there together and just spend time in separate rooms. We can do whatever we need to.
"Just know… I wanna figure it out together."