Jyn tries not to look nervous as first Bodhi and then Cassian comments on what's been left open on her computer, her hands curling into themselves at her sides, fingernails pressing into her palms. It's stupid, she wants to say. It doesn't matter. As she'd told Bodhi once, well back before she had any idea what she and Cassian would become to each other, there's no sense in disrupting what already works, no need to change any of this when things have all been fine as they are. Cassian is smiling, though, and she tries to hold onto that, to let it give her something resembling courage. It feels foolish to need it at all, but being outnumbered in a fight seems easier than addressing this now. That would be familiar territory, where this is quite the opposite, something she has no experience in whatsoever.
Her home and her family were taken from her when she was so young, and for years, she's tried to avoid any sort of similar attachment, making this uncharted territory.
"They all have two bedrooms," she adds, confirming what Cassian has already said, hating how quiet she sounds, how young. "And they're near the university, so you'd be close to work, Cassian. With a fence, Sprinkles could play outside." It all seems too committed, like she's trying to talk them into it; instinctively, immediately, she has to try to backtrack. "Like I said, I was just curious."
She wonders if Cassian has noticed what else they all have in common, but she's gone too far already without mentioning that. The last thing she needs is to dig any deeper a hole for herself.
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Her home and her family were taken from her when she was so young, and for years, she's tried to avoid any sort of similar attachment, making this uncharted territory.
"They all have two bedrooms," she adds, confirming what Cassian has already said, hating how quiet she sounds, how young. "And they're near the university, so you'd be close to work, Cassian. With a fence, Sprinkles could play outside." It all seems too committed, like she's trying to talk them into it; instinctively, immediately, she has to try to backtrack. "Like I said, I was just curious."
She wonders if Cassian has noticed what else they all have in common, but she's gone too far already without mentioning that. The last thing she needs is to dig any deeper a hole for herself.